Raw Closure

At first, the shock of loss
left me hollow, void.

I crawled inside myself,
insulated by my grief
and self-doubt and -pity.

It was all I could do to open
my eyes on a given morn.

A mere mention of you
felt like a scab,
newly hardened,
suddenly ripped away.

On the rare occasion of
public appearance,
I viewed the world through
narrowed eyes,
as though squinting into a sunrise.

This narrowed focus cost
more than could be forgiven.
Or so I thought.

Time wore on.
Days turned into weeks,
blurred into months.
Months became a year, then two.

Loss became my chrysalis.

The man I am now
does not recognize the man
I was as being the same self.

I’m not over it.
I’ve overcome it.
And damn, does it feel good.

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One thought on “Raw Closure

  1. “That which does not kill us makes us stronger.” Sounds cliche, but it's my favourite because I know it to be so true.

    In the end is a new beginning. I'm glad you feel good. Good things are coming your way. 🙂

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